I’ve wasted years twisting myself into a pretzel trying to get people to like me. What pain and sorrow that is!
Today, I enjoy my Self. I revel in the luxury of just being me. Who cares if I’m not to everyone’s liking? No one is! Not even God! So why should that matter to me?
When you are trying to feel loved from the outside in, it doesn’t work, and it’s extremely painful. You have to feel love from inside.
But when what’s inside hurts a lot, that is difficult to do – to love yourself.
I got loads and loads of help slogging through the mess inside, and finally…finally, I enjoy what’s there. It’s a lovely home!
So, don’t give up, dears, if your home is messy and painful at the moment.
Perhaps you can accept for one tiny moment, that this is the way it has to be right now. This period of your life will pass. With hard work, perseverance, and determination you will, eventually, know yourself for the gift that you are. I know it. I’ve done it. We all can.
“The cloud weeps, and then the garden sprouts.
The baby cries, and the mother’s milk flows.
The nurse of creation has said, Let them cry a lot.”
Rumi – from “Muhammad and the Huge Eater”
Translated by Coleman Barks, The Essential Rumi